I am not ok !!!

My dearest friends who read my blog, below are just my ranting, u might choose not to read, but if u read it, then just keep to urself, dun tell me anything after u read this post ok ? i dun wan to know anything !!! PLEASE !!!!






I might see strong from your view...
but the inner me is not !!!

I have to deal with alots of thing everyday !!!
I jus want a normal life only...
I want peace ...

I extremly dun like the life i currently have !!!
You might think my current life is great, yea... half only !

I am happy when i am with my fren !!!
i can be myself whenever i am with them ...

but not my family !!!
ever since i know how to think, i always told myself not to rely on others !!!
in fact, i dun like to beg other ppl...
u dun wan then dun wan la !!!
why must i beg u !!! get lost frm my world la !!!

Ppl always say youngest one is the one parents sayang the most...
i dun see it in my family !!!
i really hope myself dun be so mature...
i wan to be innocent !!

This pop into my mind last time,
what if i m disable ??? will my parents care more of me ???
i know this is so silly... but i really do have this in mind !!!

The work load on me is heavy !!!
i dun like this !!!
i thought mother shud cook for the children one ??? correct ??
why now is terbalik !!! everyday i have to cook for her and wait her come back !!!
am i suppose to do that ??
everytime u will give the same excuse ...

I dunno why u all care about the son so much but not me !!!
i know .. the only son ma !! kam po lo !!!
i also dun understand why he cannot think maturely de meh... dun tell me he dunno lo, his sister me also know lo !!! u know urself study in oversea ady then go earn ur own money la... dun always take money frm daddy lo !!!! u know how expensive it is de la ... dunno how to think de meh !!!

Alright... i m slightly ok now... there are still alot of thing i can write here, but i scare i dunno i need write untill when ....

Thanks for reading.

What to do ?

Hi everyone !!! I still have my birthday celebration for part 3 but i dun think i wan to update about that la ~ no mood lo !!!

Alright let me talk about now not past !
I applied few job for internship ady. Some have reply me to go for interview, now i feel scared ady ! This is my first time, i dunno how interview look like ! One on one ? What question will they ask? What if i dunno how to answer? What should i wear ? Wa ... So many question pop up in my mind lo ~ I have no one to share with ! This is so personal... i need someone that i can talk to and give me good suggestion ! Are you the one ? Please let me know ... I really dunno what to do !

I have 2 interview coming up soon...
One is PruAction Team
Another one is CIMB Investment Bank

Both looks good to me... I schedule both the interview on next week !!!
I dun have the courage now ~

What if i fail the interview ? What if i success ?
Hmmm...